bummer
if anyone had not noticed, lemme just reveal it. i'm not, or rather, haven't been a sucker for weddings lately. why? cause it hurts. in the back, in the heart and everywhere else that matters. i can hardly keep that genuinity in the smile anymore at weddings. yes, it's especially bad when a good friend is the one being happy. nevertheless, it bloody hurts la sia.
the more i want it to be avoided, the more it comes rolling towards me. july has been the biggest sucker by far. there's one every single week which can't be avoided, cause they're of close friends'. august sees a few more coming. after that, i hope it will all stop and give me that break. i need it...badly.
all these negativity will set some fellow friends thinking - you broke up with him? wassup with you beb? - and the top most question in a particular someone's head - you're not gonna come to my engagement?? don't worry. come i will. as mine will not be happening anytime soon (or at all), all i can do is to put all those efforts that i have set aside for mine, into yours. i will try to make it a memorable day for you.
last by not least, to adibah, siti & farhan - selamat pengantin baru. keep those babies coming. those are the only kids that's ever gonna be in my life, ever. may you be happy always.
...while I continue to live miserably...
+ she messed up at 7:17 PM
