+ spiral of oblivion +

Time for a Change

2008-06-14T20:21:00.002+08:00

It has been 2 years or so. Time has come to move on.

For those who seeks a peek at the new site, you know where to find me.

Goodbye...

Disappearing Act

2008-03-22T01:32:00.003+08:00

People always say nasty things when they're angry, don't they?

Right.

So here's what I'll do. I'll drop off the surface of the earth for now, while you people go cool down. Coz I don't freaking wanna be caught in the middle of this silent war. So when the time's right, we'll all have a chat and sort things out.

Ok?

Set. *two thumbs up*

Ciao babies.

gimme gimme gimme!

2008-02-08T18:08:00.000+08:00

here's wishlist 2008!

Top of the list...

ipod touch - 16GB pls!

Tiffany's Heart Tag Charm

And...

A Watch!!

Not too much, right?

Maroon-ed

2008-01-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

25th March 2008, 8pm, Singapore Indoor Stadium.
Anyone care to join me?
Please?

Hope

2007-11-30T15:17:00.000+08:00

“I never think the last time is the last time

I think there'll be more

I think I have forever but I don't

I just need something to happen

I need a sign that things are goin' to change

I need a reason to go on

I need some hope

In the absense of hope

I am nothing"

- Dr. Meredith Grey

This Man

2007-10-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

Ssshhh. Listen.

Knee-wobbling, heartwarming sweetness.

Position open.

Interested, anyone?

PS, I Love You

2007-09-22T18:22:00.000+08:00

Just completed a 1 week eye tearing-marathon of the book. Appropriately, yet annoyingly coincidentally, the character in the book and I awkwardly shares similar feelings. Though our incidents are worlds apart. Yet, it provides some good cry when its due.

A must read.

Been months since the last update. Since then, life has taken a 360-degrees turn. All it takes is a departure, and life is thrown into turmoil. This must be one of God's test on me this trying month. Take it in stride, someone said. Yeah right. Easier said than done, you twit. Undoubtedly,a few has came forward to share this burden, and worked hard to put the smile back where it belongs.

Am I smiling daily, yes. Am I happy? No.

And where the hell is my guardian angel when I needed him most?

PS, I Love You.

up to speed

2007-07-28T09:36:00.000+08:00

let's bring everyone up to speed with what's current.

1. unsocial-friendly work. social-love life has been put on hold for the past few weeks, all for the sake of something so damn freaking big, but is only considered as "purely administrative".

2. lacking of attention from someone (read: overworking his ass off)

3. frequent late night outs, for work and pleasure.

4. no pay increment.

5. yoga newbie.

6. lacking of attention from someone

7. test drove suzuki swift and loving it.

8. spent $200 in one week on shoes and lingerie. (read: broke!)

9. grandeur graduation ceremony coming soon!

10. KL/Cameron Highlands in talks. (this better materialise, i tell you!)

11. did i mention lack of attention from someone??

need i say more. i'm narcissistic la babe!

cobwebs...again

2007-07-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

if you see new cobwebs forming, means i'm not seeing things.

but, there's still nothing new for you...yet.

except...

i spreed on coach again!

weeeeee!

Double Graduation

2007-05-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

Remember 2007's resolution no.1 of mine?

Its accomplished!! I'm now a proud graduate of CDC. I've proven myself that if I put my heart into it, I can accomplish it. Oh, and that includes putting in money as well, a whole lot of it!

With that, resolution no.2 can happen more often now. But not so soon ok babes. =p

And, on the same day of that graduation, the exam results slip came - I graduated school too! Double whammy! Weeeee!!

It started meek, bleek and sad, but May sure ended with a blast!

have you ever seen a grown man cry?

2007-04-30T20:59:00.000+08:00

since i've known him, he was a pillar of strength, despite all the tests God had given him - never once showing any sign of what goes on under that calm surface, nor shedding a single tear in front of me.

no matter how strong a man can be, faced with a situation with the possibility of losing his loved one, he succumbed to his emotions. his calm surface betrayed the emotions he had been keeping to himself, and his tears flowed freely. he was a mess paramount of a wreck which i have never seen before. yet, he managed a small smile for me. and all i could do was provide my presence as comfort.

the call came on Wednesday. after years of battling with failing kidneys, she succumbed to her illness. though she did not go easy, she went with a fighting spirit, holding on longer than expected. she was strong-willed to fulfil her last desire - to go home. It was only God's will that fulfilled her desire of being home, a home close to Him.

due to work commitments, i was unable to be by his side. I was torn between dumping my work and being by his side. I chose to stay at work. it was a bad choice. i couldnt concentrate, and offering prayers was my only solitude. I visited him on Thursday, and we had a long, tearful chat. I was touched by how she showered him with love, even though she was no longer around. even so, her presence was felt for he keeps her memories alive.

after all, she was the Queen of his heart.

In loving memory of Salnit Bte Sanim Aug 1954 to April 2007.
Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat, Insya Allah.

her

2007-04-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

her life hanged on a thread. she's slowly going, said the doc.

at this point, all i can do is to wait for the call......

cobwebs

2007-04-13T23:37:00.000+08:00

tsk tsk. dusty-musty blog.

I'll update you when I'm done with next week.

Pray that something interesting that's worth blogging drops on my lap then.

coachy

2007-03-03T12:02:00.000+08:00

it came a week early....but....it is mine!! yay!!

*skip skip skip*

tenjewberrymuds bro & sis!! *muacks*

10 Rules to Live and Love By

2007-02-25T12:38:00.000+08:00

1. Seeing your partner through the lens of love rather than fear
2. Being willing to forgive yourself and your partner, and to make amends when necessary
3. Relaxing when times get tough; assuming that "this too shall pass"
4. Seeing in the dynamic of the relationship the reflection of what you need to learn
5. When you don't know how to handle a problem, pray and meditate, surrendering the decisions to Spirit
6. Honoring your partner's path and allow them the space to find their own way
7. Keeping up your personal growth work
8. Following the path of your own creativity
9. Staying present
10. Being grateful

Extracted from Oprah.com, in the desperate hope of self-betterment in the relationship.

It's been weeks since this brain has been thinking alot about our future. Many bad things, unforgivable to some, had happened. We've been up and down since then, yet we manage to hold on.

Until what was spoken about recently, the fear of losing you escalates, more than ever.

I fear, for I love. Very much.

thy love

2007-02-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

If thou must love me, let it be for nought

Except for love's sake only. Do not say

"I love her for her smile--her look--her way

Of speaking gently,--for a trick of thought

That falls in well with mine, and certes brought

A sense of pleasant ease on such a day"--

For these things in themselves, Beloved, may

Be changed, or change for thee,--and love, so wrought,

May be unwrought so. Neither love me for

Thine own dear pity's wiping my cheeks dry,--

A creature might forget to weep, who bore

Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby!

But love me for love's sake, that evermore

Thou mayst love on, through love's eternity.

(Elizabeth Barrett Browning 1806 - 1861)

wishin' & hopin'

2007-02-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

its here again, the time of the year is near, so near.

so, to spare all the brain cracking "what-to-get-me" episodes, here's a list to help you along:

A Coach Bag!
or

A Digital Camera!

A Tiffany Bracelet!

yep, any one of these, and i'll be eternally happy.

so start saving your moneys, y'all!

manual virgin

2007-01-28T19:23:00.000+08:00

I tell you, driving a manual is tiring la balls!

It wasn't this bad the last time I drove, some 3 years ago. Maybe that pakcik's car was so old and worn out that the pedals are loose. This ride I'm assigned to is new, with virgin pedals. And no, I wasn't the one to break 151's (my car number) virginity. It came to a point where my left foot shivered so much upon engaging the clutch pedal. my instructor sure had a good laugh at that! i had to make the car fly off the kerb to wipe that laugh of his face!

nah, that didn't happen.

i was just comtemplating between a manual and an auto car. the decision-making process went in this manner: auto - manual - auto - manual - and back to auto again. it likes to fluctuate back to manual after classes, usually. and soon, the decision will be rudely interrupted with a "No car!", due to the lack of ka-ching. waste time only think so much. *kekeke*

just after 4 lessons, I'm feeling it, oh boy, I sure am feeling it! i think I'm gonna develop a muscular left leg. one day I will develop the "muscularous leftus legous" syndrome, and I have my 3 instructors to thank, for making me a lopsided walking creature.

simply magic

2007-01-19T21:16:00.000+08:00

it was magical.

simple yet magical.

they say, making up is the best part of quarelling. and that day was simply the best time for a make up.

to the 1460 days that had went by, and to another 1460 days and beyond

*cheers*

s**t

2007-01-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

feeling friggin' shitty. no thanks to someone.

i feel the need...the need for speed!

i'm going for a drive...

out.

makansutra

2007-01-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

oh, i forgot to mention. second resolution is to become a foodie, with the two babes. we plan to go round sg, in the bout to find yummy-licious food...and we are willing to go out of our way for that!

we've been to bedok's blk 511 for the ikan pari sambal and some seafood, and we'd just went to jalan kayu for the fab prata - my fave prata cheese...yum yum! we still have some western restaurant in geylang, newton, macpherson lane and, of course, everyone's fave haunt, simpang bedok, in our list.

but there must be more to the list! anyone with nice places to recommend, let us know. and anyone who wanna join, give us a ring; final invitation is strictly on a case to case basis.

yum yum, here we come come! :p

resolution 2007

2006-12-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

there can be only one - get that friggin' license!

and then we can talk about my ride:

bee-yoooooo-ti-fool!

i can't wait!!

time for a change

2006-12-24T13:23:00.000+08:00

the two babes are so into changing their blog skins these days. new fetish, i guess. having changed skins for them got me in the mood of 'vampin mine as well. so, taa-daa! complete with some of my favouritest songs of the moment. i like it! it'll do... for now.

i've heard your pleas, those asking for updates. well, there's nothing much worth mentioning as yet, 'less you wanna be filled in with the boring, turmoil-ous and dark-ous details. reading back on my old posts, i guess i need to potray the more positive side of me. maybe in 2007. or never, since i love bitchin' so much. *evil laugh*.

its just 23 days away from "the" 1460 days, and i've yet to find a good deal for the handheld device. worst still when the 2.2 months windfall is already running thin. *faints*

on that sad note, i'll see ya when i see ya. in the mean time, see ya on the tagboard!

sleepyhead

2006-11-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

solve the following equation:

{[dry and boring subject + idiotic "perfectionist" lecturer who apparently is not so perfect afterall + absolutely unfunctional notes + many many cups of coffee] - insufficient sleep} x many many days = x

x x 2 different subjects with lecturers of similar idioticity = ?

no prizes for guessing the answer correctly.

stand by me

2006-10-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

When day turns into night
I look into your eyes
I see my future now
All the world and its wonder

This love wont fade away
And through the hardest days
I'll never question us
You are the reason
My only reason

I am blessed
To find what I need
In a world loosing hope
You're my only believe
You make things right
Everytime after time

p.s. pakistani cucu clan: see you this saturday! *winks*

class of '06

2006-09-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

presenting, DTT Class of '06,
the bunch of people who takes up 70% of my time during the week.

whenever you call

2006-09-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

And I'm truly inspired
Finding my soul
There in your eyes
And you
Have opened my heart
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself
Undisguised

spotted

2006-09-10T00:20:00.000+08:00

in the throng of human traffic in the busy mall, he was spotted. it all came stirring - old flame, old memories, old hurt. nonetheless, 6 years on, he's unchanged. though i hated to, these eyes followed him till he was out of sight.

at the same time, the call from seoul garden never came. a quick trip to the counter to check resulted in a heated argument. yes, i admit i might have shouted at that idiot, but it worked didn't it? 3 minutes later, the table was cleared and ready. which brings me to the thought that he could have just done what he could and I would have left him in peace, instead of giving me all the possible stupid reasons, which resulted in that heated argument.

apart from that sour note to start the anticipated meal, the meal was damn shiok.

it's been a long time.

self note: diet required.

in loving memory

2006-08-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

muhammad azam bin abdul aziz
12 May 1926 - 26 August 2006

beloved father and grandfather

semoga dirahmati rohnya, amin.

my lagenda

2006-08-23T20:55:00.000+08:00

meet my new fetish...my mr mcdreamy.

your rendition of lagenda tonight brought me to tears la, boy!

countdown part 3

2006-08-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

Happy Engagement Nunu!

should I even start another countdown? forget it.
yours truly is the only one left.

ah, fook it.

for better or worse

2006-08-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

finally, after eight month of searching...the fruit of my search.

especially for you, bee...

for better or worse.

bummer

2006-07-30T19:17:00.000+08:00

if anyone had not noticed, lemme just reveal it. i'm not, or rather, haven't been a sucker for weddings lately. why? cause it hurts. in the back, in the heart and everywhere else that matters. i can hardly keep that genuinity in the smile anymore at weddings. yes, it's especially bad when a good friend is the one being happy. nevertheless, it bloody hurts la sia.

the more i want it to be avoided, the more it comes rolling towards me. july has been the biggest sucker by far. there's one every single week which can't be avoided, cause they're of close friends'. august sees a few more coming. after that, i hope it will all stop and give me that break. i need it...badly.

all these negativity will set some fellow friends thinking - you broke up with him? wassup with you beb? - and the top most question in a particular someone's head - you're not gonna come to my engagement?? don't worry. come i will. as mine will not be happening anytime soon (or at all), all i can do is to put all those efforts that i have set aside for mine, into yours. i will try to make it a memorable day for you.

last by not least, to adibah, siti & farhan - selamat pengantin baru. keep those babies coming. those are the only kids that's ever gonna be in my life, ever. may you be happy always.

...while I continue to live miserably...

countdown part 2

2006-07-09T12:45:00.000+08:00

two down, only one left.
one whose turn is definitely never coming, in view all these turmoil and obstacles.

goodbye happiness, hello misery.

missing bintan

2006-07-02T13:32:00.000+08:00

d-day

2006-06-24T08:51:00.000+08:00

finally the day is here!

see you gerls in paradise!
see you other people in la la land!

bintan 'ere we come!!

2006-06-04T21:37:00.000+08:00

hotel booking........check!
ferry booking.........check!
passport................check!
kaching kaching....errr.....now, which bank should i rob for that...? *ponders*

bintan....'ere we come!! gerls! call on the male strippers!

*woot! woot!*

gone

2006-05-27T10:37:00.000+08:00

empty....

quarter empty.....

half empty.....

three quarter empty.....

emptier.....

emptier......

emptied.

Help! I'm running out of the fuzzy fuel!

Cost of a full top up: one day of missing work. only ONE freaking day, dammit!! is that too much a price?!?

empty.

empty.

...

...

...

gone.

empty

2006-05-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

Why do i feel so empty? because im drained. drained from dealing with stupid ***holes. let's list them in running order:

Stupid ***hole number 1 a.k.a idiotic manager: wanting to get out of the shit he is in, which is his fault in the first place, he tried to tai-chi it away. counter attacked by the other party, ding-dong ding-dong, end up with me having to clear his stupid shit. even worse, he thinks he is to be served. simple nitty gritty things, and he had to ask me to do it. f***ing waste of my time & effort.

Stupid ***hole number 2 a.k.a stupid bitch (the one which i have been mentioning about since months before): bloody f***ing bitch screamed at me for something which was her f***ing mistake in the first place. for this bitch, with experience comes stupidity & less common sense.

the only highlight of my day was when the clock finally stoke 5:30pm, and i dashed out of the office door without any ***holes holding me back.

you ***holes practically drained all my blood.

what a friday.

disclaimer: pardon the puns. it was all intentional.

we-suck day

2006-05-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

vesak day is the ultimate boring public holiday in 2006! programmes on the tv, being it local channels or cable channels, totally sucks. it draws my blood just trying to find a good thing to watch for at least half an hour.
and nobody, i repeat, n-o-b-o-d-y is at hand to go out with me. they either have have other plans, is not allowed to go out, or is working. and to make it worse, its pay day today. all the money in the world, and no where to spend it at! so sad.

Oh! it was my 100th post 2 entries ago. and i have had plans to make it a big wham-bham-boom-boom entry when i first started this blog. and to think that i wasted that oppurtunity on some stupid extra day off which, by the way, is one which i may or may not be able to claim any time soon.

dammit! can't the day get any worst?!

zappin away

2006-05-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

I bought the mum an advanced mother's day gift. osim's uzap. what contributes to that particular gift? for one, she's been complaining that she has gained weight. the other, for her ever aching back, which seems to be happening more though she took up yoga (yup. hip mum, aye?). and the littlest reason, the ever so little, unimportant reason, is so I can use it too. *grins*.

as I'm typing in this entry, the uzap is zapping away the excesses at the tummy. its vibrating a whole lot, even at the locations where it is not at, even up to the brains, so pardon me if I'm jumbling all the words here. the product quite good actually. you can really feel all the flabs vibrating away....but those adventurous ones, i'd advise you to empty your bladders first before embarking on a ten minutes (or more) vibrating adventure. *grins*

i just did mine. and 5 mins into my second round, i feel the urge again, already.

ok now it's stopped. hokay lah, enough zapping for today. now, let's give the rightful owner her turn...

now, what's on the list for daddy's day...? ideas sister & brother! gimme ideas!

have you heard?!

2006-05-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

have you heard?! we are getting an additional day off in lieu. aaaaall thanks to the elections. yippee!! more holidays!

*skip skip skip*

may gereeekkk!! *two thumbs up*

bah!

2006-05-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

i...just feel like putting up this picture...again. "to remind the world(or myself rather)." *kwa kwa kwa*

baahh! *grins*

may-day! may-day!

2006-05-01T10:22:00.000+08:00

its a holi-holiday! la la la la la! wahahaha! more holidays coming up next week! i'm starting to love may. more holidays = no work! *evil laugh*. hokay, so let's not spoil this joyous holiday by talking about a blardy thing like work.

oh-ho! somebody just bought a laptop yesterday. that somebody received a windfall. ibm r50e + an additional 1gb ram = $1,669. not bad a deal aye for an ibm laptop! now i'm getting jealous....but of course, i get the feel of that windfall as well. got meself a levi's jeans. finally!! *hehehe*.

grand daddy is in hospital again. lucky thing that we caught him in the start of his fits before it went full swing. its even luckier that the parents have not left home yet, else i will be panicking my ass off. so he's warded, no idea how long. but i wonder why that one particular family didn't go visit him. not to say they do not have the time. i've seen sources that say that they went rounding-rounding, went for family lunch and dinner and stuffs. why not just drop by the hospital and go visit? afterall the oldman is the father and isn't it righteous to go visit the old and sick? i simply don't understand these people. *shakes head*

anyhoos, the room was suppose to undergo plastic surgery today, but just got word that it is cancelled. reason: its may day and nobody works. *hahaha*. ok la whatever. better that way 'coz i feel like slacking today.

full day of slacking - here i come!!
now where is my breakfast?!

massaaage sir?

2006-04-27T20:38:00.000+08:00

i need a massage. very very badly. think i should visit the parlour soon. no, not those sleazy parlours,you nimwit. the high classed ones. the one where the girls there don't go " you wang massaaaaage, sir?". yeah that one.

anyhoos, i guess it's gonna be a sleepless night today. gotta finish the stoopid accounts project, or the "i-don't-know-what-the-freak-i'm-doing" project as i affectionately call it. after many many emails being ding-dong-ing between frustrated students and helpless course coordinator who refuses to barge to extend our dateline, frustrated students was forced to accept defeat. frustrated students accept defeat with glory. *muahaha*. just wait and see how we will torture the blur lecturer during our presentation tomorrow. *evil laugh*

ok enough, now i gotta get back to the "IDKWTFID" project.

shoo! scram!

arghhhh!

2006-04-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

arghhhh!! it's back to work tomorrow! back to the stress, back to the dealing with *censored* people and more *censored* bosses. arghhhh! no more sleeping regime of 3am till whatever time i like, no more relaxing whenever i like, no more ignoring office phonecalls, no more afternoon naps, no more blogging as and when i feel like it, no more MSN chatting, no more fights, no more fm radio, no more no more no more! argghhh!!!

*faints*

dum di dum

2006-04-22T18:10:00.000+08:00

finished! i've completed the rule of four in one sitting of 4 hours. Codex, you're up next. right after i've completed my accounts project, which i have yet to start and must be completed in, let's see, 5 days time? eh wrong lah! 3 days time!

darnnit! better get it started...

dum di dum di dum....shits!

the rule of four

2006-04-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

now here is an interesting book. it has all the mystery and likes of the kind of books that i fell in love with when i started reading Dan Brown. am already half way thru the book after only 3 days. hah! bai...what happen to you dey? already one week and still no progress with Decipher? hah!! *bluek*

anyhoo...rule of four is somewhat like the Da Vinci Code and its like, but more "brainy" i would say. its a mix of stuffs about renaissance arts, medieval history, religions, etc etc. it starts slow...very slow, unlike DVC which dives into the "fun" immediately. but, it gets more and more interesting, and more and more complicated in the middle. flashback here flashback there, decoding and deciphering here and there, latin, greek, and whatnots language that you have never heard of in your lifetime.

to keep you interested, here's a sneak peak: book is about decoding and deciphering the most complex book in the world, the Hypnerotomachia Poliphili, which is coded in seven languanges. murder and time constraints makes the perfect recipe for the need to decode the book urgently.

*phew* i'm about 240 pages to the end. and after that, i still have Codex to read, and of course, Decipher (once somebody finishes that, if he ever does...). got all these books at the book sale at expo, 3 for $10. hehehe. could have bought more if it wasn't for my lack of cash that day.

hokay lah! that's it lah! i'm going back to burn my midnight oil with the rule of four. toodles!

..........

2006-04-20T17:31:00.000+08:00

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! not my ace! noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
....
.......
*sob*
.......
*sob**sob*
....

i'm gonna mourn the departure of my darling ace....

bling bling

2006-04-20T11:57:00.000+08:00

this week on oprah, an abusive husband pleas for help. reading his story brings tears to my eyes. wonder what watching it will do to me. read about it here.

been watching oprah quite abit lately. her earthly attitude is always able to connect with the audience. she brings taboo topics out in the open, she touches our hearts. one show, that i've watched recently, touched me so much that i decided to join her network. she rebuild/redecorated (i'm not so sure as i watched it only half way) a family's house, and assured, personally assured that all the kids in the house, about 5 or 6 of them, sees thru a college education. mind you, its personally, not by her show, nor her angel network, its personally personally. yeah, that big hearted she is.

yep, she is that one gem in the world who tries to make the world a better place. if all the rich stars out there try as much as her, i think the world would have been a half of a better place already. instead on wasting all those cash on bling bling, they might as well help the poor and poverty.

well, we are bling bling people , living in a bling bling world. its bling bling ka-ching ka-ching day in day out. who has time for saving the world?

ah! the poison that ka-ching ka-ching has done to us...

ace-d

2006-04-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

oh my ace, you handsome bugger. where have you been all my life? *smiles*

d-day over! woohoo!! *skip skip skip*

oh wells

2006-04-19T00:14:00.000+08:00

i'm going bald. i keep pulling my hair out in frustration. i keep thinking whether the lecturer thought us the correct thing. but he is the lecturuer of course he is right...but with him constantly correcting his own notes, i beg to differ. think i'm gonna give him some of the hair i pulled out to proof to him that i'm going crazy studying for his paper. which is like...(time check) 14 hours away. technically, it is minus 3 more hours or so of studying minus my beauty sleep minus my journey equals 2 hours away. *shrugs*. oh wells. *panic!!panic!!panic!!*

my room is in a total mess. the floor around my bed is full of those ...erm... things. you know, those things that you get when you keep erasing stuffs from paper. i cant remember what the heck that thing is called. oh wells whatever. oh wait, i just saw some on my bedsheets too. oh wait, theres more. oh heck theres a whole lot of it lah. *hahaha* i literally slept with all my mistakes. corny. just in case you have started to think that i collected all these things from my study table and sprinkle them around my bed like some magic dust, so to let you know, i study on my bed. easy access to dreamland and stressland. hahaha. no lah, we just don't have the luxury of space to have study tables here. now that's the downside of living in a shared room. *shrugs*. oh wells.

now i don't feel like studying anymore. past experience tells me that whenever i'm taking exams, especially for those with calculations, i absorb better at the last minute. but in this case, it's near impossible. i have like more than 20 formulas to memorise, and i already gave up when almost all my answers keep differing from the suggested answer. and so the reason for all those hair around my bed too...hmmm....oh wells.

bai: your service is needed this thursday. come over, clean my room, take care of your beloved and entertain me. i will be dead bored, as your auntie is going out and i have no more studying to do. then....then there's nothing else in it for you.

shits. 14 hours more. shits.shits.shits. *pull out hair*

*shrugs* oh wells.

Question?

2006-04-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

Question: why?why?WHY??

the bearer of the answers to these questions simply refuse to answer me.
all these questions, and no answers.

*argh!!*

advancing attitude?

2006-04-16T13:55:00.000+08:00

has technology changed our lifes or what! move aside faxing, lettering, dial up-ing and telephoning. it's the era of SMSing, wireless connectivity-ing, chatting and teleconferencing. the effects to the attitude of the users are tremendous. let me share two examples of such incidents that happened this week.

teleconferencing: it's the thing when you want to talk to many all at once on the phone. but come some scary encounter, which comes with the ability of the handphones to record the conversation, emerged a foul mouther. in plain public sight, and to someone close at heart. maternal instincts says to protect those close to the heart. and protect we did.

chats: love in the chat room or any similar platforms. when love comes, love may also go. then comes heartaches, denial and anger. in angst and denial, these two un-loved birds decided to take it out on each other. though silently, they pour out their hearts at each other for the whole world to see. they try to be on top of the other, and hope that the world will butt in to be the moderator and announce the better winner. well, that is not always the case, as many come out enjoying the wonderful show of "Bedroom Secrets Revealed". and no, love does not mean sacrificing one's values and principles in plain public sight for the world to see and comment on. get that right to use it appropriately.

to avoid seeing more of these, please ensure proper use of these advancing technologies. technology advances in a very scary pace and in the near future, it could simply bring out a killer in the heartaching, denialing and angering us. scary mary boy!

disclaimer: he/she who eats the chilli, he/she bear the heat. so don't go around slamming me on my tagboard, your tagboard, in MSN, in person, or in anywhere else that you can show off that you have such advanced technology. i don't give a bother of what you think of my personal thoughts.

mr little john

2006-04-15T22:38:00.000+08:00

taking a break from my "intense" studying, i've been trying to log in to write some thoughts. but good 'ol mr. blogger had to jam on me...until now. while the clock ticks away, so does some of the thoughts i wanted to include.

john little is having a mad mad sale at the expo. my goodness, how mad we went. hmm...let's see, me and bai went twice...mum and dad went THRICE...aunt went twice....yup, we went mad alright. it's much more maddening when we realised how much money we have lost gambling at the sale. e-ve-ry-thing was dirt cheap i tell you, DIRT CHEAP. ok let's talk about something close to our hearts, ladies. lingerie is selling as low as $2.50! YES!! IT'S THAT CHEAP! gaaaawd i went crazy when i saw that price tag! i picked lingerie like there's no tomorrow. who cares its cheapo and unstylish and brandless. it's not like i'm gonna wear it on top of my shirt or blouse. it's gonna be on the inside and nobody's gonna see and comment anyway...unless you are...errr...ok lets not dwell on that. and for the guys, i'm not gonna bruise your manhood. guys undies and boxers are also going at dirt cheap. as cheap as what that is close to our hearts. *grins*

ooh!i bought pillows too! nice firm pillows. mmmmmm....feels like sleeping on the clouds. *smirk*

i tell you, you guys must go go go to this sale! it will drive you as mad, if not madder, than us. it's on until 16 April, which is tomorrow. hurry hurry! you have 12 hours to spend your hearts out! but but! go early or suffer the 1 hour paying queue

mr little john, you owe me a whole lot for promoting your sale and bringing you big bucks. now... where's my free lingerie!?

more freshness

2006-04-14T14:19:00.000+08:00

even i was getting sick of that green-grey layout. so here is a fresh one.

smoothing, aye? *winks*

freshness

2006-04-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

hah! after god knows how long, i finally decided to change my blog skin. dont quite like it that very much, but it will do for now.

until i tire of it.

truth be told

2006-04-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

its less than 24 hours away. i've been flipping thru them over and over and over 'til the papers looked as if they have been continuously harrassed. still, nothing much is being absorbed by something that has lost its versatility as a sponge a long time ago. *breathe in...breathe out* stay calm. stay compose. you can do it.*panic!panic!*

the d&d last weekend was not bad. the only thing that spoiled the beautiful night was the horrendous food and my stupid camera batteries that had to die on me. the emcee was hilarious. the magic show was blah but was kinda fascinating as times. the dance item was even blah-er. yeaahh...it was ooookayy lah. it was even more ooookaaayyy only when i learned that i didn't win the 42" plasma tv at the end of the nite. so much for sucking up to the IPs at the VIP tables.*hmph!*

so to show my unhappiness over their ungratefulness, i took 2 weeks leave. *evil laugh*

serves them right.

(oh alright, truth be told: half of the story above was made up. up to your discretion to figure out which.)

whoope-doo-dee!

2006-04-08T09:42:00.000+08:00

ah! long time no update. what to do? busy with projects. but all those are gone now. it's the wrath of the exams next. first paper is on tuesday afternoon. notes are written, but have yet to be absorbed into the mess behind the thick skull. fret not. there is only 2 days to do so. *panic!*

today is a no study day. because.......................its D&D tonight!! whoope-doo-dee! must be excited lar! its the first that I'm going to for this company since I joined it. and its much much much much more grander than the one that I went to for my old company. what not, suntec convention centre vs company's-spare-space-in-the-warehouse. *hmph!*

went for the "boost your communications skills" course yesterday. ms shirley taylor was fantastic! her class was very engaging and you will be fascinated with her speaking style, teaching style, her angmoh-accent-infested "lah"s , "panjanglebar"s and "siao"s. its interesting to see how she tries to blend in with the singaporeans in terms of her languange after years of staying here. and she's having a conference coming up. those who think that they need help with their communication skills, you should attend this. details here.

rite. now i gotta go wash my nice costume for my D&D tonight (to get rid of the smell), go buy my hazel eyes, and pamper myself for the rest of the afternoon to look fab tonight.

cheerios!

=)

2006-03-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

@#&%*@%#*^$&$#(*&$%^#%$*#@@)#(*&)%^(&%&^&(&^(^$%^%$%#$%#$@!!!

there! i just needed to get that off my chest!

on a happier note: i need more caffeine!! i need to keep up with my stressful double life. oh don't worry. i can handle the consequences of becoming half mad and having a loose bowel movement. MOOOORREEEEE!!!

savour the sweetness

2006-03-26T11:06:00.000+08:00

savour your sweet tooth:

http://www.goldchocs.com/aboutus.htm

lessons learnt

2006-03-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

panda eyed, migrained head, stiffed necks, aching shoulders, pimpling and drying skin... arghhhh!! stress-syndromes!

school is bringing me down down down. mistake? i hope not. though i wish that i could do part time work instead. that would be much much more enjoyable. which brings me to my other hell...work. hey, what's new? but no..its not about the people i work with this time. and ooh! did i mention...the new boss is great! or at least he is much more appreciative than others. oh he's single by the way. any takers? he looks ok, has one helluva voice (the kind which makes you weak in the knees...ya know what i mean...), extrovert, funny and intellectual. oh gosh does it sound like i'm having a crush on my own boss? *gasp!* yar rite. anyways, that's enough of him stealing my limelight.

damn i cant wait for it to be friday...again! the only reason i keep going to work everyday is to look forward to lunchtimes, end of the day and fridays. but fridays, being the last day of the week, never ever means that its slack day. it is always the worst. as so i've learnt yesterday. i have so looked forward to completing all my undone or half way done stuffs, so that i could complete my project in the second half of the day. but some other urgent stuffs had to spoil my plans. but that's ok, really. so i completed it and sent it out. relieved. but shortly after, a phone call came in and it made my day turn a complete 360 degrees. the caller continued nagging and nagging about what i just sent out!

time check: 20 mins to knock off.

now how the hell am i suppose to go make it right if you continue nagging for so long!?

time check: 15 mins to knock off.

so i had to do something. or so i tried. for the next 20 mins.

time check: 5 mins past knock off.

everyone is already at ease and smiling away, while i'm carving out a pissed expression on my face, wishing i could carve the nagger's eyes out. finally, i couldnt do it so i messaged the boss and asked for advise. so to make it short, he said he will settle it. and i simply cant be bothered to update the nagger.

time check: 45 mins past knock off.

shits. late for school. no time for mrt. to the taxi stand we go. i could have kicked myself. the ride made me 22 bux poorer. and giddier and tireder than i already was.

lesson learnt: the week may start right, but it aint over till you finally knock off on fridays. always expect the unexpected. deafen your ears when being nagged upon. and most importantly, never ever take a taxi from the airport to orchard via PIE on friday evenings. you will suffer the financial, emotional and physical consequences.

petition

2006-03-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

please visit the link below and sign the petition:

http://www.petitiononline.com/csk12345/petition-sign.html

thankies!

two to the four

2006-03-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

mr purple man walked and walked and walked and now its in my hands. yey!! mr purple walkman is here!! thankies to the people in the house (minus the old man obviously) + the one in australia + the one in bedok reservoir + the one in bedok north. *skip skip skip*

rite. here's how my historical day went:
work, as usual.
many many wishes. *thankies!*
had to do some stoopid tour of some stoopid places the whole afternoon. *booooooring!*
return to my desk to a black forest cake! *yey! thanks antlabs guys!*
present from the boss. REAL jade brooch. *don't play play ah! though I'm sure he digged that out from somewhere in his office*
and after that it was off to school. *where else on a wednesday night*

boring birthday huh? yeah. you wish you wouldnt have to have it like mine. ultimate boredom and unspecial. bleargh.

anyhoos.
had wedding function over the weekend. weather was cruel. all the more when i had to wear that godforsakenly uncomfortable baju that was given by the groom's mom. i just HAD to complain to her that its the ultimate sauna for me. she chirped that the rest said it was ok. Hallo auntie!? they made theirs sexyly airy coz they dont have to wear the tudung! *smacks forehead*

ok lah have to admit due to this, nothing much was done by me. but somehow the feet were caving in. so hurting that i had to take urgent leave today. yah rite. the real reason was to sleep in late coz i was too freaking tired and sleepy! i was succumbing to the 2 weeks of less sleep, many pressure and many stress, and was making up for it with only 4 extra hours of sleep. as if that was enough.

where is the justice!?

oh btw, childish people, stay away from me lest you want a piece of this PMS-ing wrath. thank you children.

helloooo nurse!

2006-03-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

guys fantasize nurses. gerls can fantasize nurses too. i know i am. a male nurse that is.

well he's well forgotten after being booted out of singapore idol in the early stage. but recently he's been acting in a malay movie , Erlin Montel. at first, it was just bahhh. but when i see him with a slick back hair style, cute smile and cheeky acting, i'm swooned...again. i cant help smiling. *grinz*

and to top it of, he is a nurse in real life. i think. *swoon*
i know i wouldn't mind being hospitalised for a long time, under his cute, cheeky care.

why, hellooooooooooo nurse!

missing

2006-03-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

it just came out in the papers yesterday. a 3 year old girl missing from her flat while her grandfather was praying. and today, its already in the news that the body that was found under a bridge in Aljunied is believed to be hers. i dont suspect it to be just because. im pretty sure this is another case similar to that of the chinese girl raped & murdered by some idiot.

curse the animal who did this to the poor little gerl. may you choke and die.

in the mean time, let us offer our prayers to the cute gerl who was destined not to see the world for long...

Al-Fatehah...

psychic

2006-02-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

i foresee...i foresee what im seeing. what im seeing is what i saw. therefore i see.
rite. what a bunch of crocks! (learnt that while watching 3 men and a little lady just now...hahaha!)
anyhoos. what i'm foreseeing is my next few weekends are burnt. burnt with projects of course.but hey...what's new? the eyes have been torn out the past few nights just trying to find info on turkey.

my research on turkey has been extensive. if this goes on for a few more weeks, consider myself a turkey expert. or self proclaimed turkish. unofficial and unsolicited turkish. chet! no shame.

anyhoos. i wang to go to turkey!! abit ex though. i cant afford la dey. oh well...nevermind. that will go in my list of "Possible honeymoon destination".

kwa kwa kwa!

rollin' rollin'

2006-02-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

second interview tomorrow.
another interview on thursday.
on a roll, baby?

*grins*

new beginning?

2006-02-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

in less than 12 hours time, will be my first interview in over a year.

shits.

all the jitters is here.

oh well. get it over and done with.

wish me luck!! :p

walking man

2006-02-09T22:05:00.000+08:00

forget the creative zen.

give me a walkman instead.

everything else is just noise.

the hunter

2006-02-04T19:40:00.000+08:00

once again, ladies and gentlemen, its hunting season!
anyone with or knows of any goood lobang with goood career advancement and goood money, with no @&$%@^# management or bosses, please, feel free to recommend or call me.

dank you many many.

greetings, earthlings!

2006-01-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

to my chinese friends: xin nian kuai ler!

to my malay friends: selamat tahun baru!

to myself: enjoy your limited days of no stress! wohooo!!

basket the shuffle!

2006-01-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

setoopid ipod shuffle. forever giving me problems and depriving me of my daily dosage of sound theraphy.

pc and laptop was reconfigured so had to reinstall the itunes & ipod updater. so when i seriously, absolutely, terribly need to update my songs, stupid thing had to get spoiled!! #*$&^@#%&^%@! (pretty sure you know what that translate to). im getting pretty irritated with the shuffle. already it sux that it needs to have a software to transfer the song, which doesnt give me the liberty to transfer over songs anywhere that i want.

now the hardware itself is problematic. shuffle also never shuffle properly. im sure while reading this, my sis & bro would probably be sayin "tak berterima kasih betol!" ("ungrateful!") since the shuffle was a birthday present from them. but too bad la... only one year on, and it is already giving me these much problems.

maybe this year, you guys should consider the creative zen instead. (see! i've even indicated the prefered colour for you!)

*grins!*

the story of a flower

2006-01-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

boy: so what do you want...?

girl: just a flower will do...

and a flower she received. it may be small and unnoticeable. it may not be expensive nor it may not be cheap. it may not be glamorous at all. but its the love that comes in the packaging. the sacrifice and the willingness to take that step to pacify and please. that was all that matters. and that was all it took to melt the girl's stoned heart after the event that had recently happened.

the flower now brands the finger of the girl, where it is believed that the vein runs straight to the heart.

the way to a lady's heart

2006-01-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

it was the third year celebration that wasnt. all the right elements - attention, affection, flowers, laughter - was not present. instead a scolding from an attitudal person was in order, and the day ended with zilt conversation...

happy anniversary.

yay.

back to school!

2006-01-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

yesserie you read right. im going back to school. and the first day starts tomorrow! goodness! the jittery jitters! well, its just a part time Diploma in Tourism...a course i've been wanting to take since god-knows-when and was not able to take previously for reasons only god-knows-why! reasons only the dad will know and understand. well dad, this time round i'm not budging. and with "backing" of mum, i starting my first day tomorrow.

and why a diploma when i already have one? well...i have to start from scratch to avoid having plunge myself into a state of no income. which would have been alright actually if i had a bloody rich boyfriend. but unfortunately that is not the case. so i am stuck with taking only a diploma for now. dont worry...its only abt a year and a quarter.

and that doesnt mean im gonna shelf my plans to get married. i still am. but when...only god-knows-when! and maybe after that have happen...a degree might be in order.

right...we will see if that happens. (coz we all jolly well knows what happen after marriage...*winks*)

bitch united

2006-01-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

4 days into the new year and the bitches have emerged. fret not. you can be the bitch, no problem with that.

but i will be the bigger bitch... bitch!

reminiscing 2-oh-oh-5

2006-01-02T11:09:00.000+08:00

2-oh-oh-5. it has passed. two days into the new year, the happenings of the year before are fresh in the heart and the mind.

family: with the sis in australia and the bro living independently, boredom sets in. the old man is around and truthfully, at times he can be a ...ok nevermind. however, it brings the relationship with the parents to a new level, personally at least. i talk, discuss and joke with them more.
2006: bring these relationships to newer levels. hopefully with the news that i will be bringing to them soon enough.

work: all starts off well... i would have said that it was "flourishing". til' came the second half of the year. heart aches and discontentment sets in. working hard is not enough anymore. it will never be enough.
2006: collect the monies and move on to greener pastures.

relationship: it was the year which tested us. at half-way point it all crumbled. but as any hindi movie would depict, we just cant stay away from each other. *hee hee*. trust and understanding reached a new level. and soon, we will be stepping into our third year.
2006: well... we have our plans. stay tuned. *hee hee*

friends: as of the past years, i stick to the few whom i have placed my trust in. well i dont have to mention you now, do i? *winks*. thru sadness and laughter, they were there for me. as i hope i had with them. a couple of marriages took place. one of them being the one who has been my confidante and my serenity for the past 11 years. "make sure you contact macam biasa eh. macam biasa tau!" said she the day after her marriage. "ummm...oooo-kaaay...tengok la macam mana eh." said i. how can i do it? you're a married woman... how do i contact you and gossip on the things we used to gossip about? what would your husband say? anyhoos...fret not. im here when im needed and i know you are too when you're needed.
2006: be the best friend everyone needs. see more marriages happening and be happy for them...and silently wish that my time will come soon and that all these friends' kids will be my little fairies. *hee hee*.

well, that about sums up life in 2005. a year worth looking back to.
here's to hopes that 2-oh-oh-6 will be a better year, and another year worth reminiscing.

*cheers!*

pix galore!

2005-12-27T10:12:00.000+08:00

Ho-rite!! the pix of the zoo trip and the two weddings are uploaded!! thanks to my one day leave today. hee hee.

links are on the right. happy viewing!

my boo

2005-12-24T23:28:00.001+08:00

awwwwww....

countdown

2005-12-24T08:46:00.000+08:00

one down...one more to go...yours truly not included.

birth of a woman

2005-12-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

ho-kay. my long abandoned blog. victim of the owner's laziness and lack of excitement in her life. a very sorry story in which many would not wanna know about.

so its monday. but this monday was different. it was not too blue for me. why? coz at work there was no government and no spies or bitches to spoil my day. ahhh...heaven! wish this is the way for the rest of my freaking working life!

and after work i did my sinfullest thing of my current time (knowing my current financial situation). i bought clothes. not one...but three. blame it on mango's "50% off" signs all over the shop! was only suppose to buy a top for this sat's dinner. got that at metro and the feet was itching to step into mango. and unintentionally, the fingers swiped the card for 2 more tops. seems like these two guys are working against me today.

fizah and sham will finally be solemnised this friday. after close to three years of courtship, this two complete opposite lovebirds will finally start a new chapter in their lives. why do i call them complete opposite? well, she is the soft and shy one, while he disregards others' feelings when he speaks. yeah boy, your bad first impression still lingers in this mind. but as days turns into months and months into years, this heart knows that there is no better man who can make her happy, as much as how he has done over the past 2 years plus. his understanding towards her has brought trust to a new level in their relationship. and shot jealousy in me. *sheesh!*

i have seen their love bloom from a friendship to a marriage. the love wouldnt have bloomed if she didnt have the courage to face her fears. well of course, she had that lil push in the form of me. though at that time, if i remember vaguely, i got fed up with pushing her.*hee hee*. and now, with her marriage, i will lose a girlfriend. but i will gain a woman instead. my soft little girlfriend who once sat behind me and couldn't stop smiling at me like some sweet schoolgirl on the first day of school is now all grown up and ready to face the universe. and she's moving to the other end of the country. and as much as i hate to admit it, i will miss her sorely. the most when she has always been there for me in my times of down-ness...

to fizah & sham: congratulations, my dears. may your marriage be blessed till the end and may happiness be on your side forever. ps: at least two small ones in the next 2-3 years please? i wanna "borrow" them when its my turn. *grins*.

And I

2005-12-06T22:00:00.001+08:00

specially for you bee...

of monkeys and baboons

2005-12-04T19:38:00.000+08:00

me, him, nunu and rizal...we went to the zoo today!! nunu got us free tix! the last time i visited the zoo was about...let's see...15 years ago? more maybe. and that was like looooooooooooooooooooooooooong ago... the trip? gosh it was freaking hot! the four of us were sweating our asses off. and i was like one goondoo seeing animals for the first time. my camera was happily clicking away. at the end of the day, it has a whooping 72 pix taken! hee hee...typical kiasu singaporean? nooooooo...i'm definitely not! sheesh!

i was thinking that the next time i will be there will be when my kid is abt 3 years old. see...thats a long time to go sia! but i gotta admit, most of my pix turn out to be nice...for someone who is an unprofessional photographer. hee hee...

so now im comfy in my bed, with the aircon on. i was so missing this comfort while walking thru the animals earlier on. however, i took the whole experience to bake myself in the sun (which, by the way, doesnt happen that often) and to get closer to him. in other words, bonding. i always see the cool and collected side of him...or trying to be cool perhaps. but today, i get to see the crazier side of him. the side which has been hiding since knew him for a few months. despite enjoying his craziness, i conclude that the heatwave must have gotten to his head.

pheww! such a fun filled, hot and tiring day. so nunu...lets do this again some day. jurong birdpark next? any free tix?? keep me posted! *winks*

oh! keep a lookout for the pix of the zoo trip...coming soon!

ms personality

2005-12-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading...

You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose.

Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily.

But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

True? No? You decide. *Smiles*

New Love

2005-11-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

he's sooo cute....urrrgghh!! now lying down doest feel rite without him in my arms! i'm so in love with him.

having major head ache currently. i know... im suppose to be sleeping now. but its warm in here...despite it raining heavily outside. but someone is already happily sleeping away beside me. wonder what will happen if i turn on the aircon, the lights and the music...loud! will she freak out?? definitely! haa haa...!

super sleepy earlier on...and now super awake with a super headache. what the heck went wrong?!

*~Nur Balqis - welcome to the world~*

Intro of Fifi

2005-11-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

meet fifi, my new sleeping companion, presented by him.
*thanks bee!*

Husband 1.0

2005-11-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

**nunu, again im stealing things from you**

Dear Technical Support:

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slow-down in the overall performance, particularly in the flower and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.
In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs such as Romance 9.5, Personal Attention 6.5 and GoOutOnTheTown 3.2. When an attempt is made to run Conversation 8.0, the screen goes blank. Upon opening HelpAroundTheHouse 2.6, the system simply crashes. Husband 1.0 auto-installed a questionable Entertainment Suite. This bundled package contains several undesirable programs such as NFL 5.0, NBA 3.0, and PremierLeague 20.1.
But worst of all is a program called ChannelSurf 220.0. In addition, Husband 1.0 also loaded several unnecessary programs such as ManyNaps 9.7, UnfinishedProjects 20.4 and MyMomIsThe Best 1.1. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What do I do?

Signed, DESPERATE

hee hee this is sooo cute. i wonder what technical support would respond. uninstall all programs and reinstall? reformat and partition hard disk? if all fails, come down to support centre for a one-to-one exchange? *giggles*

my december plans to sentosa just got cancelled. some gerl, after pestering me so much to do the booking, pulled out at the last minute after freaking out over the price. then when i called to make the booking, they only have a room that faces trees!! forget it! then came the idea of joining this some gerl to kl instead. but he had to be tied down with work doing stock-takes for the whole of december. shit man...free $350 flying away...bye bye free money!

its saturday night and its extremely boring. watching some muzika extravaganza which is boring me too much i had to turn if off and tune in to bow wow & ciara. oh yes, its currently on repeat mode. until i get nausea with it.

oh! nunu has a new blog...finally! simplistic and light. too light in fact. too light that its hard for me to read. you get my hint!

hari raya has made me totally broke. especially when they give you an advance pay. am now needing donations badly to keep me surviving for another 3 weeks. so... any rich old man available out there?

early morning pleas

2005-11-25T08:03:00.000+08:00

ok this is early in the morning where i am suppose to be getting ready for work. but...heck ah! who bloody cares!

just got word of someone complaining about me over their blog. fine...fine...i'll do it on saturday! im just to tied up dealing with bitches at work. well at least your complain abt me was better than what i received at work yesterday. it was a day full of bitch hating.

and the story continues today...

androgyny

2005-11-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

new reasons appear everyday for me to hate her more and more. the frequency is increasing and i need out badly. patience run thin. trust is zilt. work is just for the sake of the money nowadays. no job satisfaction. no enjoyment. no fulfilment. dragging feet to work everyday. you think anyone cares if you suffer from any of that? eat sh*t, vomit blood and die ... and nobody cares.

so my ntu babies have completed their exams. now i have peeps to entertain me again. thru msn, thru sms, or thru meetin up. great! now i have new peeps to complain to. especially abt one of their peers working with me right now. super big complainant but super lazy. wait till he sees what im gonna give to him in February next year. *evil laugh*

gerlfriend will be entering a new world exactly one month from now. she's having pre and post wedding jitters. pre jitters is understandable. but post jitters?? yeah im sure most of you know what the jitters is about *giggle*. but still...take it one at a time lah gerl! if it happens, it happens. but we all know that it must happen. some time or another. *hee hee*

i need a holiday badly. its a sore seeing people walking around with luggages everyday, knowing the fact that you are mugging at work and dealing with impossible people. i dream of winning a lottery and not working and going for holidays around the world. but a dream is just a dream. in other words, dream on!

Bitch 'Em

2005-11-21T19:15:00.000+08:00

Work's a bitch.
So are you, damned woman.

10 Things I Hate About You

2005-11-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all.

eh rumah terbakar lah!!

2005-11-18T17:09:00.000+08:00

here i am again.writing on my long neglected blog.which has many broken links.and no new updates.

current status: sick.due to weather changes said doc.and mum said why only now?
how would i know said i.tsk.

grand-daddy is still in the hospital.after a bad fall. gettin weaker by the day i observed.

the sis is also back from australia.on a school break.now the room is noisy again.tsk!

and if you're wondering abt the title of this entry,lemme tell you the story.
ten mins after i came back from the doc this morning,heard the wail of the fire engines on the road.
well thought that was normal.till it came to out carpark.and by then, there were many bystanders looking up.
mum and i were trying so very hard to see what was happening.till uncle next door told us (from the kitchen window)
that the block next door was on fire.Ooooh! i havent seen that personally before!so mum and i...being the kepohs...got dressed and went down to the lift landing.just to see the action! hee hee...we were so like 2 makcik kepohs...giving our comments once in a while.hee hee...

right i have to get going.the nose is running like a loose tap.all missing links and songs...will settle later when i have the time.hee hee...

oh btw...he has been brought home. and the response? *grinz*

celebration of tiredness

2005-11-04T15:57:00.000+08:00

the long awaited joyous celebration.it finally happened.good food...good company...good whatever else.
not forgetting lotsa sweet savouring cakes and cookies and gassy drinks.and it has all contributed to my croaky throat.

it was a 2 woman show this year.so most of what was split last year was being done by one.
preparations and the day itself.worst was this year the first day was for people to come over!
the mum asked "Serve or buffet?""Buffet!!I am NOT going to do the extra work since i'm alone!!" said i.
but still...that made no difference.by two, most have came and left. by three, bro and i was flat out on the bed.
but someone was snoring away and disturbing the other from the slumber.

so...we made more cakes today!the ever hot fave "tapak kuda" went out of stock yesterday itself.
and fans were asking for it. *bleargh*so decided to make more today.i baked while mum supervised.
and it all came out big and fat! Li-te-ral-ly FAT!so fat that it should be called "tapak gajah" instead.
*hee...hee*... again...proudness overwhelms me!

and the bank is also runnin dry...fast!too fast!!

weekend has yet to come.more people coming.which means more work.
and more money coming out.and getting more tired.and more back aches...
and shoulder aches...and headaches....and so on and so forth.
you get the picture.

in loving memory

2005-10-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

you were my past.
my world used to revolve around you.
for two whole years.
i used to see you in my future.
even after what happened,i still did.
'til i decided to move on.
and two years on, i was doin great.
until one fine day.
but i made a decision and since then you became a memory.
so why?
why do i keep seeing you in my mind?
particular at this time of the year?
why?
questions which only i know the answers.
but am afraid to do so.
so lets keep it bottled up.
for now.

i need a massage badly.aches aches aches.all over the body.monday coming up.there goes my weekend.burnt.
hectic week coming up.let's see how i cope with that.*sigh*

multi-tasked-ded

2005-10-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

change bedsheets ... checked.(pinky-dom!!)
collect my baju ... checked.(while totally ignoring damned woman and her staff)
change curtain ... checked. (broke a glass in the process)
cut cake ... checked. (with grand-daddy overlooking the whole process)
wrap cake ... checked. (also with him hovering around)
spread nutella and wrap horse shoe cake ... checked.(with footaball on teevee)
my laundry ... checked.(just realised that the new soap smells marvelicious!)

and all that was complete today!proudness overwhelms me.im such a good multitasker.
even managed to squeeze in watching deuce bigalow and the matrix in between.
oh im so gooooooooood!

next on my list:complete my money envelopes ... starting on that right after this.
make my chococornflakes ... thats up tmrw!try new choco cookies recipe ... errr...we will see abt this one...

and...here's a word that only comes out once a year...particularly when hari raya is nearing.
"Kuehtupaatttttt!!!"

*beams*

2005-10-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

M&M's --> 5 for $10!
Belgian Chocs -- > 3 for $12!
Many Many more at Cheap Cheap prices!

Oh gosh...
There's a crazy crazy sale going on!
Last day on 28th October!
Hurry!Hurry!

Oh btw...
Look out for the expiry dates ya...!
*evil laugh*

*oh thunderous night... you're gonna give me a pleasurous sleep tonight*

smuckums!

2005-10-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

heck of a weekend.a bloody heck one.

first up: room spring cleaning.
the day i bacame a zorro wannabe.with a bandanna on the head and on the face.collect 10 years' supply of dust.
rubbish accumulated to 3 big black plastic bags.and get this: only 20% of the stuffs was mine.
yes...someone HAD to leave a whole lot of rubbish for me to clean!!baskeeeet!!
anyhoos.thats almost done. just a lil bit here and there.then im set for hari raya! woohoo!

second up: geylang
damn i hate crowds.especially if its crawling with frail ol' ppl.i can just knock them over anytime.
and weird is that whenever you wanna walk someone in front just HAD to stop to look at stuffs and
cause a whole jam behind. move to the side la dey!!and so im not going back there. except for when
im gonna collect my baju...which brings me to...

third up: my baju kebaya
rite. it was suppose to be ready on the 20th.so on the 22nd i went to collect.
and initially they couldnt find it. i came back a few minutes later. still cant find it. came back with the mom.
still. so...let it cool and wait for her to call. sunday morning. call from damned woman.
"very sorry leh.i really cant find your baju.very weird leh...".yada.yada.yada. heard some craps abt her maid though.
the blood rose and the rest of the words simply drowned.what kind of a seamstress would lose my baju!?
bloody hell...i was so looking forward to wearing that!! was so tempted to get my full refund with a hiked up price.
but went against that and went to arab st to find the exact same cloth. bloody bad luck.
i had to settle for a not so nice one.i cursed that woman so much. so we went over to her shop after that.
the mum did all the negotiation. good thing that she did.i was so losing my cool. all those foul words were at the tip of the tongue. though i dont quite believe it, i stuck to the principle that customers are always right at that point of time.
particularly when you just lose my clothes, you arse. got back all my refund. made her sew another clothes for a cheaper price. and demand her to get it ready in 5 days time. and in good sewing quality. i did, however, add that im not coming back there next year. and im gonna tell those whom i've recommended not to either.

apparently nunu is also having problems with this woman. she seems to have cut the cloth wrongly.
so she is not going back there again. serve you right, damn woman, for losing your customers.

so i notice my entries these days are containing foulity. am tempting to use those that are worst. but i still have to upkeep my 'clean' reputation.

so the weekend went like _____. (fill up the blank with whatever words deem fit). now we will see how the week will go.
monday it self has gone like _______. (again, fill the blank). but that...will be compiled with the rest of the weeks'.

damn you woman. bloody damn you.

begone!

2005-10-21T19:13:00.000+08:00

HL Banana Milk.
you do me sweet, sweet justice.

*Thank god!*

uninspired

2005-10-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

since nothin interesting is showing on tv, i tried to enhance this blog.
and after an hour of intense work i came out with zilt. stoopid codes simply wont work.
seems like the bad luck is still ard even now.all started with an email that was sent out wrongly this morning.
and it kept happening throughout the day. even the sir spotted one and got a nice lil warning, thank you.

the only ups was when was commented for a proposal i did.
not much but it did help boost my bloody low morale a lil'. yeah...just a tiny winny little bit.
and another was when those boys from the labs of ants kept coming up for assistance.
a good break away from the mundane stuffs that i'm doing. kinda miss the good ol' days with them.

i can just see myself getting old and ugly doing stoopid admin stuffs and dealing with bitchy bitches.

just my bad luck.